Hi, D. Remember when you texted me saying “you love me” but I keep quiet? Maybe you were about uncertain I’ve noticed it well that you repeated it again in your next message. “I love you”, you said that again in the end of your second message. But I replied nothing but casual messages, very normal texts which show no signs of response to that “I love you” thing. For you, maybe I keep quite (and ignorant) that then you just stop saying it and didn’t repeat it again… till now.
You know, actually I did read it, closely and carefully. And I smiled, happily. Yea, I was happy when I read it. But I’m too shocked all at once. I just don’t know what to say. It is just too sudden. You never be very clear telling me about how was your life, that I got no idea why you suddenly told me that kind of thing. I thought you were still okay with your (previous) girlfriend that I thought it must wrong—definitely wrong—if I replied you with at least same expression. (Later on, and far far after that night’s chit-chat you let me know that you were already break up since long, and I learned that actually you’re about expressed your honest single-man feeling that night. —That’s funny if I remember it now. LOL).
And, you never expressed something romantic before as well, even something which directed to any affection stuff, that then, read your super-to-the-point loving text surely made me confuse. “What happen to you? Are you okay?” Well, of course I kept that question just for myself. I was afraid that it would make you more offended. LOL. Then, I choose to keep quiet and replied you nothing but casual messages, just like ordinary friends do.
I don’t know whether you’ll read this letter or not. Maybe not, because you are very ignorant to any other social-media stuffs. Maybe yes, because you still secretly stalking what I am posting in my social-media stuffs, haha… Even so, I just want you to know that I’m not ‘quiet’ that night. I saw your messages, I read it and I happily smiled at it. The problem is, you just threw me to a complicated situation at once. Yea, you really put me in a very complicated and tricky feeling all at once! So I thought I need some time to crystalize my mind and analyze what’s going on. It is just (occurred) too fast that I don’t know what to say and so been quiet (for awhile) is all I can do, that night. But, once again, thank you for ever been sending me that sweet messages. I was happy reading it.
~ I can’t read your mind, D. I was and will never be. What I’m doing these times is just guessing, coincidentally my guess is (always) correct. And so your heart feeling. I don’t know what you feel or what’s in your heart unless you tell me. I can’t read human heart-love-codes, I’m not good at it. That’s all. :)